Jacob

Last night I went to the mall with my mother in-law and sister in-law. I think it was the first time I've been to the mall in like a year. And yes we had both my kids. Lilly in the stroller, and the 3 year old walking on his own. Now when Jacob, Lilly and I go out shopping on our own, most of the time it's a pleasant experience. Lilly usually sits in the cart or stroller no problem, and Jacob just wanders, but always comes back....or if he doesn't I always know right where to find him (toys or looking at the x-box games) Last night though, oh my gosh...why is it your kids always have to act like crazy children when close family is around? Jacob was so intrigued by the dressing rooms, and wanted to watch everyone try on clothes. By the end of the evening I gave up and Jacob thought it would be fun to try on some clothes himself.


Some other highlights from the night-
forgot the diapers, so of course Lilly poops...so I had to interrupt some poor girl eating her dinner and ask if she had a diaper to spear....
Jacob playing with the vacuum in Dillard's, all was fine until he decided to wack the stroller with it, and making it rain nastiness all over Lilly....
Waiting in line for the family restroom, with Jacob letting all the strangers know that he didn't want soap in his mouth...
I got to try on some clothes (even though I had no money to shop) and found out I have gone down 2 sizes since October....But I'm sure I just went back up a size due to the fat piece of cheesecake I just ate....

but anyways, I'm not ashamed to say being a mother is hard (and we have to find comfort in food sometimes) If anyone tells you it's easy, well I'm sure they're lying (or they pay someone to take care of their kids) Many woman have told me "there's a time and season for everything" and I know one day I'll wake up and Jacob won't want to play x-box or play tag with me and Lilly will be to cool to let her mommy kiss her cheeks repeatably...so for now those are the things that need to bring me joy....its weird because every time I look at that picture of Jacob, I forget about the whole trip and all I can think about is how much I love that kid, and how much joy and laughter he brings to me.